We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn’t diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
So much thoughts running through my head for such a long while now. So much left unsaid, but i can not fathom the words. I am just tired of all this. Why can’t it be simple again? No complexes, no doubts, no assuming.. just knowing what there is to know. And feeling content and happy with that knowledge, but above all, having inner-peace with it.
I do not need people in my life who plan on staying there parttime. Either you’re in it completely, or you just go. But don’t plan on turning back either then. And if you feel, if you really do feel, then make an effort. Go for it. But if it’s not that.. and you’re only there because you might feel some sort of ‘sorry/guilt’…then just leave.
I do not need any ‘pity’ from you that might be the only reason causing you to write the things you do. Do not feel guilty towards me, just go live your life to the fullest and forget about everything. I won’t even hold a grudge towards you. I just want to live happily and be strangers then.
During the return drive to Oslo today we listened to the radio in preparation for the one-minute silence. As it was declared that all the people of Norway, trains, buses and cars were to observe the minute’s silence, we pulled over on to the hard shoulder. This was on the main E18 route to the capital. Every vehicle came to a stop. There were many that stood outside their vehicles in a service station and the rest sat in their cars. The motorway was completely empty in both directions with all vehicles on the hard shoulders. Both myself and my wife struggled to hold back our tears. It was a very strong and emotional experience to witness such a silence.